Day 26 Thai Food

Made some yummy veggie coconut curry and shrimp rolls with my mom tonight for dinner (something that we've been working on- spending time together so there's less tension). I'm actually getting hungry, I ate too little I guess. and I'm going to warm some up (without guilt!)

It's very refreshing now, to actually spend time thinking about foods I want to make, how to season them versus thinking about what I can find in the cupboard, just stuffing it down my throat, and then back up again day after day.

Never thought this could happen while I was sick, but what the doctor tells you before you're recovered doesn't seem possible (like actually feeling more comfortable with certain foods as days go on, and plateauing in weight - so far anyway).  Deep down I want to be better, twenty six days is the longest I've sustained in over five years. Before this year, the most consecutive free days I've had was around 5... but twenty six.. TODAY! yahooooo me!!!

Yesterday my dad told me "It's good to have my daughter back"
and couple of nights ago he said, "Thanks for getting help"
(My dad isn't the feeling-talking-feeling type of person; mostly due to cultural norms.  This meant the world to me. And that he said "we [he and my mom] love you" ......... wow.)

Has anyone seen (well I'm sure, it's a yes) the new show What's Eating You? What are your thoughts about it? My thoughts: it's sort of like those other disordered shows (hoarders, addicted, intervention) and it sort of sheds a light on what an eating disorder truly is.. but on twitter (oh twitter) one of my friends tweeted "What's eating you is a crazy show. People are nuts"  It bothers/hurts/angers me, even though I know it shouldn't that even with these types of shows people are still judgmental.  I'll get over it. Its helpful for me because I ask my parents to watch, and they do, which I appreciate, and it allows me to talk about my eating disorder a little more every time because I feel a little more normal (I guess when compared to the people on tv)

Now I'm hungry. Time to eat!


xoxox,
daisy

Day 20 Hello world.

Support. Talking. Feeling.

Then letting the feeling pass and not using food as a crutch.

Day 20. Decided to start a blog, for the sake of my brain, to let out what I feel (regardless if there is anyone that will listen)

Oh and Just my luck, something about bulimia just came on TV... on Fox. -_-
Day 20 tomorrow. and keeping to it.